Friday, March 2, 2012

My Wife has Cancer

We were shocked to hear the phone ring at 7:35 am.  Lori got up to answer the phone and read the caller i.d., it was her doctor’s office.  She answer the phone and her face grew stern, vexed, serious.  As she listens intently, she holds up her hand forming a letter, “C”...Lori has cancer.

The issue of God’s sovereignty is something that has been near and dear to my heart for the last 6 years.  Prior to sovereignty my multi-year studies focused on God’s will.  The two are inexorably linked.  Therefore, when Lori told me she had cancer, in my heart, I acknowledged that Jesus is in control and this is for His glory.  It has been no accident that my quiet times have been in Genesis and I have been listening to John Piper’s eight-year study on Romans. 

Abraham is justified by faith, faith alone and it is credited to him as righteousness.  The wonder of that statement should take your breath away.  Joseph, when speaking to his brothers says, “it was not you who sent me here but God” (Gen. 45:8).  Warren Weirsbe’s book, “Walking with the Giants” reminds us of hero’s of the faith that walked humbly before God and God did great things through them.  Little men that served an enormous God, walking by faith and trusting Him for everything.  They wanted nothing for themselves but to glorify God and fulfill His calling on their lives - whatever that may be.

I suppose I could complain about a lot.  Life has not turned out as I expected. I was out of work for a year and my seminary education seems to be wasted.   My wife has cancer, we are living in yet again, another “ghetto”.  I seem to be unable to provide for my children as I long to do.   But who should I blame?  God, for not acting as I would have wanted?  May it never be!  God, in His perfect sovereignty has brought me to the perfect place for the perfect time.  Imagine Joseph being betrayed by his brothers, sold into slavery, wrongly accused of rape, then forgotten in prison.

It is so easy to get distracted by bad news and lose that God consciousness.  Today, I am reminded that my knees aren’t just funny things to play with.  God gave me knee caps to hit the dirt and bow before my Maker, my Saviour, my Lord and my God.  I am thankful that my wife’s prognosis is excellent and the cancer wasn’t nearly as serious as it could be.  I am thankful that I have a roof over my head and a job to put food on the table.  I know that God has the perfect plan for me to bring Him the maximum glory if I will only take my eyes of the man in the mirror.  As Piper always says, “God is most glorified when we are most satisfied in Him”. 

I love you Lord, thank you.

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